counting the hours

I can't believe that I am less than 48 hours from being graduated high school. It's pretty hard to believe that tonight is my graduation dinner and then by tomorrow mid morning I'll be finished.

omg. thats so crazy. and for some reason I don't want to sleep tonight I dunno why.. that's all yo.

english

so I have only 3 assessment pieces left before I officially finish highschool aw yee super keen yo.

but I have hit the no motivation thing or I never really got over it..
so I'm writing up another to do list on my blog because it seems that its one of the best ways for me to actually accomplish something for me during the day.. and I think I'll do sub categories so I feel like I've done more than I have.. reverse psychology much?

TODO;

• English oral (7.00pm-
• Introduction
• Body One
• Body Two
• Rebuttle
• Call to Action
• Conclusion
• All before tomorrow duh my oral is tomorrow... 
• Maths C Revision I did a little.. and tutor today counts!
• Skype Study Session for Maths C with MRkins
• Clean the dinning table
• Clean the sofa
• Folded a basket of clothes
• Arrange the rug nicely 6.59pm
• Close the windows its getting a little chilly 6.59pm
• Accounting Oral Write up
• Clean the bathroom floor
• Organise the bathroom counter
• Clean my bedroom floor
• Vacuum my room and the house
• Talk to Phil when I get sad
• stop procrastinating with this blog post and actually do something.. LEGO 7.00pm

early morning moods.

so its like 2.31am right now and i am pretty tired but I'm not asleep and I have no idea why. I should probably be doing some of my assignment but I don't think my brain will be very productive right now. So yeah I can't even seem to be able to make sentences that flow right now.. And I just have like a whole range of feeling going through my head right now like I feel angry and peeved and just like all weird inside and I feel like crying or something I don't know if its like hormones or something but I just feel like weird. argh I don't make any sense!

Anyways I think im like just so annoyed because I said I wouldn't let it get to me and all taht shiz but I really don't like my brother being friends with John.. Like it's not liek I can do anything to stop him from being friends with him but seriously what can I do about it? I can't tell my brother about anything that happened and it seems like I'm just torturing myself I don't even know why I am so angry about it like its in the past and everything. and I should just like be over it but I just can't seem to get over that he was in my house. that he was touching the things like I live in.. I didn't even want to go to the living room because I felt like almost repulsed by touching something that he had touched. HE WAS IN MY FUCKING HOUSE. Now I have no where to hide. nothing I can do about privacy I don't know what to do..

I just want to cry like cry it out and get over it but I don't think its even worth the tears what an assface you fucking ruined my life. i hate you jonh. i truly do.

procrastination. a lifestyle?

saturdays are the worst.

just seems like a blur and nothing ever gets done.. I probably eat the worst junk too. right now I'm just watching Alice in Wonderland 1951 version and even thought I think this story is one of the most messed up and weird ones ever I guess I shouldn't judge before I've watched the movie. 

I don't know why I don't have any motivation.. I guess I've been complaining about it throughout this whole blog.. And I guess this idea of blogging throughout the whole year about my senior year was a good idea but really it wasn't well I don't think it was anymore.. because I don't know.. 

Anyways I guess I should probably try and get to starting my assignment since it is due this weekend and yeah I should email it to my teacher and all that shiz. But it doesn't seem like that will be happening any time soon.. because yeah I don't know if understanding why I am unmotivated will help me. um actually I don't even think I know why I feel so unmotivated.. so obviously I wouldn't know how to fix it. I would say I'm not complaining that I have a bad life because I am complaining technically I am but its not because I have a bad life its just that I don't really know the direction that my life is going in at the moment.. 

And I just feel like I don't even know whats going on in my life right now like of course we can complain all we want and I don't think anything will ever happen if we don't do anything about it hey. 

healthy lifestyle, healthy living, healthy foods, exercise, its a lifestyle change but how does why, how, whats the point really? 

argh. oh so hungry and lethargic, pisssed yo. 

friggin.. whatever

I feel so like ulgh right now like headache and pissy and craving sugar and feeling shit for not exercising in 2 days and feeling fat from eating out and pissy and moody because im sleep deprived and like annoyed because im basically in a call with no one becasue phil isnt even talking in the call because I havent been talking in the call because im so like argh all the above.

This post is probably going to be one of those ranting ones but yeah I guess thats what i feel like right now. I don't think I'll ever be a very successful blogger aye, well not if i keep going like I am now AHA because this content is pre shit..

oh something i hate to the core of me is being called bad words by friends in conversation even though it doesnt mean anything I still get pretty peeved when phil calls me a bitch or a kient like wtf what gives you the fucking right to call me a bad name like that when I have not done anything clearly to deserve such a name. and he does like apologise in the end but it still hurts like dont even do it in the first place you asshole.

this post will actually just be one of those ranting ones because I'm just in the mood buddy. no ones forcing you to read this blog and heck I dont think I'll even want to read it when I look back at this.

Oh and term 4 you bitch. i fucking hate this term like yes its the home stretch and i can see the finish line in the distance but fuck its so hard. i have no motivation and frankly i think ive given up and holy my mum was talking to me about children of this age and saying that we always have to be doing something so thats why if we get bored we want to do something, anything, to feel 'something' get a kick out of something. and you know what that probably is true. because i would totally do something really stupid to feel something right now and i do really feel numb and just in  haze its friggin ridiculous.

okay i dont think this is making much sense jbut what the heck i thought it would be helpful to just like type angrily all my feelings but i dont think it really helped. not really. 

on the home stretch

I haven't blogged in over a month.. unheard of! Only kidding, I don't think I take this blogging thing any serious anyways even though I probably should.. whats the point of doing things half way anyways?

Ums I feel really ew right now because I just had like a crap load of junk food today and then ending up having maccas for dinner like seriously? ugh I'm so yuck lols. But don't worry I won't start complaining about the size of my thighs or the flab under my arms cos really there's no point in complaining about that.

I reckon I should get in shape a little for like schoolies sake or something but hey who am I trying to impress anyways.. AHAH actually I probably should care muahaha

okay off tangent again. actually I don't really know what to talk about at the moment I probably should make a start on my assignments which I got like last week and still have not touched. Bad idea hey?

oh wells can't reverse the past now can you?

adorkable

So I have just finished reading the 387 page book that is Adorkable by Sarra Manning in pretty much a day and a morning which is pretty crazy considering that this is exams week and all and that in about 8 hours I'll be in an exam with next to nil study preparation..

I don't plan on sleeping tonight but hey it's not really night time anymore considering it is quite early in the morning. I probably could just hop off to bed and not give a damn about my exams today but I feel like that would probably be one of those really stupid things to do that you would look back to later and just say wow, wasn't that stupid? and I don't want to be one of those people who just regret the things that they do in their life.

So yes, I finished this book and continued to read it even though I knew that I should have been doing something really more productive and yeah.. I probably should be writing up my accounting report instead of writing this blog post but hey its what I'm doing. Overall I quite liked this book. It did have an underlying message, a pretty hot and easily imaginable guy in it and some of the situations are pretty rational, although there was just all those steamy paragraphs of sexual tension which I probably enjoyed a little too much..

I couldn't really put this book down once I'd started to get into the story, it sorta always kept me wanting to know what happened next and anticipating the next chapter but always ending up surprised and often wide-eyed.

I wouldn't say this was an amazing read but it did teach me about individuality, ambition, human emotion and that sexual tension can stuff anything up.

Okay, onto accounting now. Wish me luck?
... Nah it's okay I'll just wish it for myself..

easy going?

So we flew over the Atlantic for about seven hours. Michael watched three films and I ate Haribo and worked on my presentation. When it was time to give my speech, I'd appear to be winging it when, in reality, I'd rehearsed it so many times that I was word-perfect and didn't even need to look at my notes. I'd thrown in a few ums and ahs because nobody likes a smartarse seventeen-year old, and I probably would fall over my sentences at the start from nerves but then I planned to be funny and insightful and the voice of my generation, which wasn't difficult as my generation was woefully inarticulate.

Adorkable, Sarra Manning page 251

I really liked this paragraph I'm not really sure why maybe because it showed me that nothing comes easily and even though it seems to look effortless there is actually a lot of effort and motivation to achieve what seems to be so easy.

I probably aren't all that great at articulating my words either but that's why I am trying to expand my vocabulary. It's not an easy thing to do but I guess everything is a little tough in the beginning.

So yeah, I guess let's just see how this goes I don't really know the reasons why I write in this blog but then again something might come out of this whole experience and if nothing does something will one day and I'll think to myself thank god I put in that effort to achieve something. That probably won't happen right away though because I'm actually the most slack, lazy, unmotivated person right now. I guess it kinda shows in this blog too. It's all over the place and has no structure.

I'm trying to give my life structure and somehow move through the obstacle course I've set for my life. But I don't know maybe I'm on the wrong tangent at the moment or something. So yeah, sorry if this blog is all in loose ends and indecisiveness. Not that I think that I have any loyal readers or anything I don't think I'd even read my own blog AHA!

But if there is anyone who listens to my rants and just plain stupid posts sometimes, thank you. It means a lot to me. More than you'd think hey.

word of the day #1 (WOTD)

belligrent: while reading Adorkable.

I might add in a little rant because I have like so little motivation since yesterday after maths c tutor to do anything productive except read and try to increase my vocabulary. But I still have 4 exams like seriously? WHYYYYYY I can like see the finish line but I've just collapsed out of exhaustion? or just pure laziness. Probably the later.

Oh but Phil did ask me to the movies last night which resulted in a quite embarrassing text to Linda involving a lot of OGMOGMOGMGOMGGGGGG and YAAAAAAAAAAYS I don't really know why I was so happy.. oh wells we'll see how it goes I guess. I don't know what we are though, friends? more than friends? maybe its what I've been reading with all the juicy sex scenes which don't leave much to the imagination if you know what I mean..

OKAY I WILL WRITE MY JAPANESE WRITING NOW.

bel·lig·er·ent/bəˈlijərənt/

Adjective:	Hostile and aggressive.
Noun:	A nation or person engaged in war or conflict, as recognized by international law.
Synonyms:	warring - militant - bellicose

MATHS YOU SUCK

and AMEN to that. I have a maths B exam tomorrow and I am not keen to the least. Even though, this is the last exam of the week which should be a little more comforting.. its not. fricking WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO HARD D:

Oh and did I tell you I got my Maths C assignment marks back? nah I didn't aha alright marks I hope they bring me up A+, A, A I think its around there..  I'm majorly crossing my fingers for the exam because I swear AJKFBDKGJBDJGK RAGEEEEE

Anyways, I should probably get back to revising about deriving and integrating but writing up this blog post is SO DAYUM FUN or maybe just like a lame excuse for procrastinating AHA the later is the true one :D

kthxbaii

list inception.. listception?

Since writing lists is something I seem to do on a daily basis..

THINGS I WANT TO DO TODAY! FROM.. NOW.

• Not gonna lie I really want to wash my face..  ye no more yucky feeling and I cleaned my bathroom sink at the same time so (Y)
• Get changed out of my pj's (unlikely) I partly did.. good enough
• Clear up the junk on my desk so I can study now eei...
• LET some LIGHT into this FRIGGIN CAVE
• Eat my strawberries with homemade nutella :D (in progress) oh oh TIP: if you don't have nutella at home and you really want to eat strawberries with chocolate and cbf melting some take a HEAAAAP of milo and mix with a little chocolate milk or any milk really and BAM chocolate! sorta. Hope that doesn't sound super bogan.. -__-
• uh my chemistry eei? (IN PROGRESS!!!! 10.57-11.40, 11.55-12.19, 1.13-2.01)
• Write an email reply to my Japanese host family
• Revise for Japanese Reading exam (in progress 2.05-2.45）
• Go to the Senior Drama night???  ask before 2 !!!　(NOT GOING #RAGERAGE)
• Charge my phone, iPod, iPad (in progress)
• Text Jean my right number!
• Procrastinated watching Hot Chelle Rae Honestly, We are never ever every getting back together and Sorry for party Rockin 
• Brushed my teeth x2
• Scored 50 Thredless shirts for 'chance' to win the $75 voucher YE (inprogress 12.19-12.49 HOLY WASTED HALF AN HOUR :O and its only for a 'chance' to win FRICK)
• Filled in my brows eheh
• Sending Katie a get well message and taking ages to find the right thing to say DX

OKAY I'LL KEEP THIS UPDATED THROUGHOUT THE DAY.. HOPEFULLY 8D

AAAAANNNNNND LEGO.

Update 7.29pm So after about 3 I have just basically procrastinated for like 4 hours.. I did write up a whole bunch of Japanese revision and stuff but overall wasted a good.. 4 hours =.=  FUARK YOU SCHOOL

Update 8.30pm STILL HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING ON MY CHEMISTRY >> MOTIVATE MOTIVATE MOTIVATE MEEEEEEE

exams exams life reflection?

It's hard to believe that I can finally count how many days of schooling I have left without complication anymore. 40 days. It's actually a little frightening because that means that I have 14 days left of this term. Which is 168 hours or 10080 minutes or 604800 seconds of which I probably will waste 3600 writing this post and procrastinating... That's an hour for all you math haters.

So, for the next 2 weeks I have a lot of assessment to finish and ): I'm trying not to let it get to me but really inside I'm freaking out bro.

Monday 10/9/2012 (3days, 72 hours, 4320 minutes, 259200 seconds away)
Chemistry WINE EEI DUE! (fuarrrrk bro)

Tuesday 11/9/2012 (4days, 96 hours, 5760 minutes, 345600 seconds away)
Japanese Reading Exam

Thursday 13/9/2012
English Unseen Exam

Friday 14/9/2012
Maths B Exam

Monday 17/9/2012
Japanese Speaking Exam

Tuesday 18/9/2012
Japanese Writing Exam
Accounting Exam

Wednesday 19/9/2012
Maths C Exam

Thursday 20/9/2012
CMT Moderation Day
Dying my hair with Jadicus
AFTERNOON PARTAY~

Friday 21/9/2012
LAST DAY OF THE WORST TERM OF MY LYFE! <-- WTF..

Okaaaaay that's a whole lot of shit to get though in 2 weeks..
Everyone tells you lots of stories about your last year of high school and I reckon you just have to live it for yourself and not regret the things that you do. We all can be told a million billion times that we should study, eat well, sleep early, revise x100000, not stress out, take time to relax. But it rarely works out like that. Or maybe it does but it didn't in my year of schooling.

In the end its about your own choices and yeah, in the end it is your life. All those years in primary school that you wanted independence and responsibility of your own life. Well.. here you go, its there for you to take but honestly, I don't think I'm ready for it. And no, I am not embarrassed to say that. I know that its worse to fail at something and by having too much of an ego to admit that you have done something wrong.

I won't say that I regret anything I have done this year, because it has all been my decisions. And I know I made some really shitty ones this time around but hey, you only get to go through this once and everyone is bound to make mistakes. And sometimes they really bring you down and its fricking hard to get up. It might take a while but in the end you will get there. (No QCS pun intended aha I'm so funny ^^)

But anyway. I should probably get onto that Chemistry EEI that I have dreaded WITH PASSION UNTIL NOW!

ciao x

define: abhorrent

learnt a new word today! Although it is another one of those negative words..  Inspiring disgust and loathing; repugnant. Detestable.
 

and I was like YO. that's an interesting word.   

benefit cosmetics

HELLO ALL,

I want to share something pretty exciting! Well I kind of gave it away in the title but hey, MY ORDER FROM BENEFIT ARRIVED! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAY something that has definitely brightened my dreary day.

I ordered a whole bunch of stuff because I wanted to take advantage of the 'Free Shipping over $150' because most of the time I don't see the point of paying shipping if you can take advantage of free shipping you know? normally shipping is ridiculous over to Australia anyways. And also I have always been interested in Benefit Cosmetics every since I bought my first Boi-ing concealer a few weeks/months ago but I think I liked it too much I already hit pan!

Benefit Cosmetics is a really interesting cosmetics company who is know for their many quirky style and witty product names. I loved my Boi-ing concealer so much but the only downside was that the price is ridiculous in Australia ): like seriously for my concealer was $32 from Myer compared to the site at $20. I could understand a few dollars difference maybe because of the currency conversion and handling cost but $12 ontop of the retail price of the shop? No thanks.

So I ended up spending $154.00 total which is not too bad and I did get a lot of goodies to try so I'm super excited :D I took advantage of the free shipping but I was a little concerned because there was no tracking available which bothered me a little but since Benefit is a well known company I took the risk. Luckily my package arrived in one piece! Also, the shipping was surprisingly fast!

Placed my order:  21/8/2012 (Night)
Order Shipped:    22/8/2012
Order Arrived:     31/8/2012 (Afternoon)

That is some pretty amazing service considering this package has traveled around half the world. Pretty impressed.  (:

I might add a few photos later but I was just to excited I had to write up this post!

Hope you have all had an amazeballs week! xx

getcha head in the game

no high school musical pun intended.

ready and keen to start my english oral? that would be a negitory..
never ready to do anything for english..

might add a wishlist to my toolbar.. hms

pointless post aha

ello ello,

been on a bit of an online shopping spree.. teeth whitening, benefit cosmetics, threadless, ebay probably more if I don't stop myself........

ANYWAYS
I have my maths C assignment due tomorrow YAY. ): and my english holy. I'm so stuffed for that freaking shakespeare why you gotta make high school life so hard?

LATE NIGHT TONIGHT 8)

make the most of it

because in the end its impossible to change the past.

procrastination and talent

Everyone wants to be successful right? We all have aspirations and goals of what we want to achieve in our lives.

But, sometimes we have no motivation to do anything productive towards our goals and that's where the problem begins. If we don't do anything productive towards our goals we will achieve nothing too. It sucks I know and I have been so lazy lately. Not like OMGGGG I haven't studied in an hour I'M GOING TO FAIL. when I say I've been lazy lately this means that I am in my final year in high school and when I get home from school or on the weekends I just procrastinate ALL.THE.TIME. and I don't really know if its just a rebellious stage? but I just haven't had any motivation lately and I know its bad. I'm sure everyone knows the things that are bad in their lives but still continue to do them.

For example; the people who smoke surely know that smoking is destroying their lungs and could potentially kill them but then why would they still continue to smoke as much as a packet a day or even more? Is it because smoking has become an addiction to them? Does that mean that I am addicted to procrastinating? because if it does lord help me!

Honestly, I don't know why I procrastinate so much during this time where my whole 12 years of schooling is on the line of a number that would determine what I could do in the future. Maybe it scares me. I don't really know why I am so willing to throw all those years away.

Many people say that I'm smart or good academically and I'm not saying this to boast about my grades or how well I do in school but there are many times that I think they don't really know me at all. In primary school I used to always try pretty hard in schoolwork but lately there hasn't been much effort on my end. And even though they say 'It'll be okay in the end. Don't worry!' I seriously doubt myself sometimes. Just like in Grey's Anatomy when Christina wasn't studying for her boards there wasn't any way for her to pass on pure talent. And it's true. No matter how much talent you have or how much luck you possess there is no way that you can pass the final year of high school "nicely" with talent alone. Blood, sweat and tears come to mind though.

Chill night.. Shitnutts

Watching '10 Things I Hate About You' and oldie but a goodie one to make any girl smile

alarahrah

HELLO

LONG TAIME NO POST
sorry.

I don't know what to post about.. :S well I've been breaking out a little/lot #rage

kthxbaii

omg I miss sam

decisions, decisions

I must say blogging is currently such a damn chore. But I guess if I was really committed to blogging it would be something that I loved to do instead of a distant thought somewhere in the back of my head.

That day may come.. eventually.

I'm thinking of doing some product reviews for everyone I guess even if it is just another post about a product saying the same things I still like to read them. I'll think about which ones to post about I guess and I haven't been posting photos up lately because whenever I read blogs they always have dslr's and epic megapixels and I have a shitty diggy cam. WOO.

ALSO, I'm planning to buy a Clarisonic Mia YAYAYAY I've been eyeing for one for a really long time now and I have finally found some on eBay from reliable stores WIN. but now I can't decide on the colour I want to get ):

I wish Clarisonic made cases so that you could switch up the design to whatever when you wanted to! That would be EPIC :D I'm tossing it up between Green, Lavender, Ice Blue and Blue

DECISIONS DECISIONS

ALL IMAGES FROM GOOGLE

It's getting pretty late I think I'll start getting ready for bed and maybe write up some of my maths assignment and do some cleaning.. okay I take that back I'll not be getting ready for bed any time soon (:

been slack.

I guess  (I know) I've been really slack about blogging lately. Sorry ):

But I am going to make another list! because that's what I mostly do on this blog.. And normally I don't follow them so :S AHAHA okay. 

1. Bake Macaroons, but if it comes down to it buy some macaroons (:

BUT I don't really see what the craze about macaroons is about lately? Is it just because it looks posh? "A little taste of London?" I don't really understand what all the hype is about other than they looking pretty and costing more a lot more chump change.

2. Less Junk, More Healthy?

So, less Macca's and more fruit and veg? YUMYUM

Some Inspiration;

YUSH LEGO HEALTHY.

3. Um.. Study?

WHAT SAY WHAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN STUDY? IT SHOULD BE STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

FUCKING TERM 3 WHAT ARE YOU THINKING GUUUUURRRRLLLLL???

Ahahaha I'm so funny... >>"

If my study space looked like this..

Or this..

There would be no work done. Guaranteed. I'd be so distracted about the pictures on my wall and self praising non-stop for all the effort taken into decorating them. Aw yee.

Find a study buddy

Okay, toodles x

A tough time..

So I haven't blogged in a while and it is because there has been some shit that's gone down and I won't lie it wasn't good. But I don't want to get into that.

It's now nearly the end of week 2 of term 3 and celebration day will be in a week which is pretty scary...

And yeah there isn't that much else I guess just need to keep my head down and study this term I reckon.

Term 3 LEGO.

Term 3.

Oh holy shit nutts here comes term 3.

It's right around the corner and I don't think I feel anything, if any ready. Fuck.

all good things come to an end.

I don't want to sound pessimistic but I really do believe that if something is going so amazingly good for you, there is always something dark lurking around the corner.

and when it hits you its not nice.. it makes you feel so shit.

so hey this post is about that guy again because frankly, I seem to always need to vent about these problems. And what better place than blogger? Anyways, this guy is a pretty nice but he can sometimes be a total ass. Well I guess you expect that from a guy that games.. a lot but still. I got pretty used to the ass behavior and all that not that I care for this guy or anything but yeah. So I was pretty used to him leaving the call later so that he could game with his friends. That was cool I had other stuff to do during the night too.

But, for three days in a row we called for at least 4 hours until one of us falls asleep and his laptop runs out  of battery. And that was cool like I liked talking to him and stuff but by the third day the fatigue and everything was getting a little overwhelming but I still somehow stayed awake til about 2 and then died. But today is the fourth day and I called him during the day and it was alright but I could tell that we were sick of each others company.. and we just didn't talk in the call and it was pre awkies.

But that doesn't mean that this is a good thing coming to an end I just reckon that too much of anything is not good for you and more than three days was obviously too much for us. I hope that I don't make this friendship weird and shit because I really need to focus for this term. This term will basically make or break my grades and OP so yay.


Why is finding the balance so fucking hard? 

oh tutor how I loathe your weekly occurance,

The feeling in my stomach

This is a mini recount about the first time I met up with a friend that I am pretty close with through Skype but haven't ever met up properly.. So today was the first day I met up with him and I was pretty excited I made sure I looked pretty, did my hair nice made sure my makeup was even and not flaky I put in quite a lot of effort. And we just didnt know what to do when we were together and he walked behind me most of the time which kind of annoyed me really like he couldn't even walk beside me? Or voice himself if we went the wrong direction because I had no idea where I was going.. Why is this guy such a wimp? I want someone with balls not someone who just follows behind my footsteps seriously? Grow a set.

And then while watching the movie that was chill like nothin happened not like anything should have but still we didn't even touch the whole day.. I don't think :/ then after the movie finished he just was like oh I guess I'll go home now.. And he did he walked to the bus stop and just waved goodbye and I was like seriously? The movie just finished and he doesnt even want my company? You suck.

So I tested him pretty much right after he left probs desperate but once he was gone I felt so alone like more alone than ever and I hated it. I hated it so much I wanted to cry right in the middle of the street. and he just texted happily saying I'd have fun shopping myself and by that point I was pissed so I told him he will sucks. And I didnt get a reply.

Shopping was a little relieving after I got into the mood but for a good 15-20 mins I had the worst feeling in my stomach of just loneliness and hurt and it just made me feel horrible and spending money just didn't make me happy. But I got a cute knit and some treatment for my hair and all was better.

So I get home and I find out he's going to Sydney and leaving pretty much right as he told me and I was in a pretty happy state and right then the horrible feelings came back into my stomach. This time I took a lot longer to shake them and I had to talk ti my friend about it to just rage about it and I'm just so confused why would he be such an ass? I don't understand.

EDIT 26/6/2012 10.38pm
Turns out he isn't in Sydney, because of the rain and turbulence his flight was cancelled.. but he still didn't tell me.. what does that mean? I still don't understand.

its the HOLDAYS

I was actually writing up a post in my phone near the beginning of the holidays and then forgot about it and it deleted itself :/ so lame. Anyways, the holidays are finally here and I have 2 and a half weeks.. TOO SHORT D:

The term of DOOM is coming up. Term 3. GAAAAAAAHHHHH *runs away*

its not even funny.

TO DO THIS HOLIDAY:

• Shoppinggg YAYAYA :D
• Clean the house :/
• Start research on Macbeth for English ):
• Maths C assignment D:
• Gifts and letters for Ayaka and host grandma (:
• Thinking about what to pack for Japan :S
• Download all of Dance Academy Season 2 woot ;)

Okay, well I think I will get back to cleaning my room and writing up a shopping list YE YE YE

TOOODLEEES xx

Oh sleep, how I have missed your comforting embrace;

Me: I have to get up early this morning! #determined
Bed: But baby it's cold outside ;)

the night after the all nigher,

on wednesday night I swear I was out and sadly I fell asleep in a call which.. is pretty embarrassing but but friend is pretty understanding (:  and today he has an exam so GOOD LUCK BUDDY!

And well today I swear I was aiming to study but it didn't really happen... *shifty* I was pretty lazy and shit so yeah.. oh wells. um. so I am going to try and study now after I finish this post (:

ONLY TWO EXAMS TO GO woot woot

My exam checklist was here

oh em gee almost finished!!

Um I wanted to post not really about anything in particular but just to update this blog and yeah hopefully tomorrow will go along well and then  I can partayyy loljks. I still have to go to school on monday ):

genius.

It's an all nighter tonight,

Okay I am still awake and it is preeeetty early and my laptop is still being lame so rage. And I should really start writing up my English even though I'll probably be just bull shitting the whole thing today anyways.

Freaking I need to stop procrastinating.

I am blogging from my phone again and I think I'll just have another little rage to remind myself what I am doing this year. Or what I should be doing this year.

I should make one of those motivation boards or some shit.. I'll probably forget but I really need to like freaking get focused.

Faaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkkkk

Colgate Max White

I wanted to blog from my laptop today but it's being really stupid so I guess I'll just write another post from my phone.

I actually have an English oral tomorrow and I'm actually a little scared for it.. School orals scare the shit nuts out if me. True story. So fml.

Okay enough depressing talk actually wait one more little rage ahaha (: I have a really good friend or I always thought we are... Anyways I don't know if I'm paranoid or something but I swear when I called him he went offline I'm sure there is always a good reason or what not but I won't lie. I think I'm getting too into this friendship and if I'm not careful he is probably going to get freaked out or some shit and think I want to marry him :| and I don't mean to but I think if you're the one who cares more in the friendship you would probably be head over heels or some shit but holy shit alarm bells should be ringing like crazy. And I miss him. I fucking miss him. But I doubt it does..

Okay now no more depressing talk.

I bought this toothpaste a few days ago and I've been using it I wouldn't say it works like magic or anything but I think I might be seeing a little tiny tiinie little bit of whitening... Maybe? I'll let you know how it goes.. :S

Games

The past few days have been such a blur I reckon.. Anyways I just called my friend and he answered but seemed kinda busy so I asked if he was sleepy? No. Gaming? Yes.. In a call? Yes. So I told him he could go back to the call. And he asked me if it was okay and I said yes. That I wouldn't be upset or cry it make him feel bad. Nopes. And then he left. And tears came to my eyes.

Wind.

The weather lately is cray cray. It's cold like shit in the morning and sunny during the day. The sun goes down early and it gets shit cold again. Far out. And my Japanese and chemistry exams... Hm.

Something I would loooove to do during the cold nights is take a nice long bath but since I don't have a bath available at the moment ): and I haven't stocked up on any lush bath ballistics ahaha I'll settle for amazing soap.

Miranda, oh Miranda why haven't I found you earlier?

This soap from lush is just wow. Amazing. It looks really pretty, smells amaaaaazing, exfoliates gently and just leaves you in the happiest mood. Love it to bits x

apologies

for the boring layout of my posts lately, I have been too lazy to blog properly so I've been posting from my phone and as you can see there are not very many options available. I feel like posting about a few things so well just see how this post turns out then (:

ONE
Exams are coming up, and because I should be studying but I am writing this blog post instead I'll just list my exams out for no particular reason. Hopefully, it will give me the kick in the ass I need to absorb all this content.

Monday 4/6/2012
Japanese Listening Exam

Wednesday 6/6/2012
Japanese Writing Exam
Chemistry Exam

Thursday 7/6/2012
Accounting Exam (Part 1)

Friday 8/6/2012
Japanese Speaking Exam

Tuesday 12/6/2012
Maths B Exam

Wednesday 13/6/2012
English Oral

Friday 15/6/2012
Maths C Exam
Accounting Exam (Part 2)

Well that is quite a substantial list... So fml.

edit; until I get on my computer writing done against the exam will do.

TWO
I was watching a few shows and just from random happenings I heard these words which I didn't really know what they meant so I had to dictionary them or 'define google' them (Y)

ir·i·des·cent/ˌiriˈdesənt/

Adjective:

Showing luminous colors that seem to change when seen from different angles.

e·mas·cu·late/iˈmaskyəˌlāt/

Verb:

Make (a person, idea, or piece of legislation) weaker or less effective. Deprive (a man) of his male role or identity: "he feels emasculated because he cannot control his sons' behavior".

and because no matter how many times I look this up I always forget

mel·an·chol·y/ˈmelənˌkälē/

Noun:

A deep, pensive, and long-lasting sadness.

There are probably more but that is all I can think of off the top of my head at the moment

THREE
I wanted to write this up because even though it's probably a little late its always better late than never yeah?
(well maybe not in this case..) but here goes:

My Goals for the other half of this Year 2012

• Finish with an OP 5 at least.
• English: Read more, Listen more, Try more. HA5+
• Maths B: Revise, Revise, Revise. VHA5+
• Maths C: Same as above. VHA5+
• Chemistry: Ask more questions. HA8+
• Japanese: Start listening in class! VHA7+
• Accounting: Stop procrastinating! VHA5+
• STOP PROCRASTINATING. STOP. STOP. STOP.
• Sleep at a decent hour on school nights.
• Study every night and go to SLQ or stay back at school if needed.
• Pay attention in class and revise diligently.
• Have enough energy during the day to function properly.
• Save up money because I buy too much shit.
• Organise my life out so that I don't have mental breakdowns when everything gets overwhelming.
• Find my balance personal, social, school.
• Start getting my hours up for learning to drive.
• Relax and recoup during the June/July holidays and make memories in Japan in the September holidays and finish term 4 with a bang!

It's a pretty big list but I still think everyone is capable if they put their mind to it. And I am sure that if I put my mind to it I will be able to reach these goals.

Over and out x

Daily resilience #rage

I wanted to write a little review on this hair treatment spray I've been using for quite a while now and it's not crazy amazing but it's pretty good. If you can see from the picture I'm almost out and I think I will buy another bottle (: it's just really easy to use and a quick spray to your hair really boosts the moisture for the day *thumbsup*

And I wanted to just rage at work because I like my system and I work well with my system but today my boss was like do it this way and I was like... But that's not how I do it but yo they're the boss and shiz so yeah and I ended up stuffing it up anyways so yeah friggen why you no balanced RAGE

#edit: why does that picture look so ghetto..

LUSH COLLECTION

I should be studying but yeah.. My brain is just like FUUUUUUUUUU

So I'm just going to list all the lush products I have collected over the past few months

FACE
Herbalism cleanser
Ocean salt (sample)
Coal face (sample)
Cupcake fresh face mask
Catastrophe cosmetic
Brazened honey
Tea tree toner
Enzymion moisturiser
Grease lightning
Mask of magnaminty face mask

LIPS
Sweet lips scrub
It started with a kiss lip tint
Latte lip tint

SOAP
Miranda

BODY
Grass shower gel
Charity pot (sample)

HAIR
Daddy-O shampoo
Rehab shampoo
Retread conditioner
Seanik solid shampoo bar
Shampoo bar tin
H'suan Wen Hua hair treatment
No drought (sample)

Just realized that's a pretty big list...

Another FREE WIFI post

But I'll have to be quick because I only have one station to write this.. And I don't even know what to write about! Ahah well half day today! Keen for half a day of hardcore shopping yee ;)

Keeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnn

Free wifi

Well obviously I didn't get around to blogging last night.. Yeah I am a really lazy person but I did sleep pretty early so at least I'm not a zombie right now (:

But uh.. There's someone sitting next to me on the train super awkiessss ... D8

Flying

My my time does fly by ): I will probably post tonight this is just a quick reminder mostly for myself ahaha (:

life is a fucking enigma

nuff said. luke morrall

come get em' puffy eyes for everyone!

This week has gone so fast, it's not even funny.
I bet before I can blink my eyes it will be exam block and I will be even more stressed than I already am right now. I swear the breakouts I have now are just going to like grow exponentially once exam block comes around :/

Also, I reckon all these assessment items are making me get pissed so easy and just everything is heightened pain in the ass I reckon.

Okay I should get back to my assignment it's making me major sad.

GAHHHHHHHH byes x

isn't she lushly?

I really don't think I have much motivation to blog and I don't think people would really read this blog much anyways now that I think about it this blog is more for me than for me. yeah pretty selfish I know :/

Okay well I'm just going to ramble about a few things because I should be doing work for school but my brain and body are just so damn lazy and well that means that I am pretty lazy too. aaha... not funny.

FIRSTLY, I want to talk about Lush because I wouldn't say that I am a 'lushie' but I do really like some of their products (Y) although some of them I just kind of go... wtf is that? geddit? Lush isn't a gift from god sent from above like some people say it is. Believe me its not, but it is a pretty innovative shop.

I've already talked about my Herbalism and the Cupcake mask in a previous post here. I would like to try a lot more Lush products but most of them I don't think are essential for your life they are more wants rather than needs.

My wish list so far :D

• Angels on Bare Skin Cleanser: I'e hear so so so many good things about this cleanser and I really want to try it out just to see what the fuss is about 
• Penguin Knot Wrap: Present packaging for Ayaka maybeee
• Sexy Peel Soap: I've smelt this in the store and its really refreshing and just BAM wakes you up
• You Snap the Whip: Sounds great from reviews might try it out
• Coalface: Has always always fascinated me 
• Fresh Face Masks: For every now and then pampering I really want to try Brazened Honey and Oatfix
• It Started With A Kiss: Lip tint with an amazing red colour my friend has it and I steal it all the time (:
• Big: Just another one of these hear so many good reviews on it gotta try it

So yes, Lush is pretty amazing but don't get too carried away there is no such thing as a shop that has EVERYTHING you want.. thats just not possible. I might write a few more reviews up as I go and cross out the products if I buy them :D

Well I think I have wasted enough time on the interwebs for today until next time x

it's been way way too long.

whoa, I haven't touched this blog in a while.. I guess there has just been so much shit going on I haven't thought about blogging lately it was about the last thing on my mind.

to sum up how I am feeling at the moment; alright not great not bad maybe a little numb.

time for some pretty pictures (:

okay lazy sleep.

Pissed?

Agreed.

shawty it&apos;s your boooootyy~

Okay. It's been a really long time and I am pretty sorry because I thought about blogging so freaking much. But I was always so freaking lazy. And I think I really need to get into the right mind set because freak a term has passed already and I wasn't even ready!! Okay this doesn't make any sense.

This post will probably be all messed up and like as my english teacher says 'let it all out with word vomit' yeah.. not a pretty picture I must say.

And well my laptop just died. Like it always does but hey I think I still love this laptop because it's been with me for a long time now and that is pretty cool I swear there are tons of times that I want to smash this thing in the wall but overall it's served me pretty good. I'm actually a bit afraid for my desktop because it keeps on showing this 'Unable to load disk drive' and I'm sorta borderline freaking out cos there's a lot of shit on that computer.

Omg. BREATHE~

Another thing is,  don't really know this week has just been like a blur and the holidays should be like a time to relax and go out with friends and shit.. and I just always feel so tired and I don't know why D: Is it the iron thing? Am I like iron deficient or something :S

Someone who always makes me SMILES :D I bet you don't know who it is yo!
I LOVE YOU DAVID SO! (uh well not literally but you make some funny shit :D)

Also I has a massive session of retail therapy on Monday and over the term shopping and such I'm just bored so I thought I might make mini reviews on the stuff I bought LEGO.

Urban Decay's NAKED Pallete

Obviously these images are from frmheadtotoe (From Head To Toe) she is one of my favourite youtube beauty guru's btw :D

I L.O.V.E the Naked Pallete! Basically it puts all my other eyeshadows to shame although compared to the price of my other pallets this was... a lot of dough. The colours are all super pigmented and they can be used in so many ways its so versatile! love love love this pallete definitely recommend to anyone who wants a really good neutrals pallete.

I was thinking of getting the Naked 2 as well but I wasn't really sure :S

But I think for now I will just stick to the original Naked Pallete because I love love love it!! And I might get the Naked 2 later maybeeeeeeee?

Lush's Herbalism Fresh Face Cleanser

                   

My first impressions of Herbalism in the Lush store was its green yo. and then my second impression was uh it smells a little funky. But now that I've been using it for a few days I got used to the smell and the green thing is pretty cool ahaha so yeah I can't do a full review on this because I've only been using it for a few days but from what I've used its pretty goot!

Lush's Cupcake Fresh Face Mask

The cupcake mask from lush is delectable! Well actually from my experience it doesn't smell that amazing I don't know if that's from it not being totally fresh fresh but I'm not sure it's not like that great a smell its pleasant but not like AMAZING if you get me. The mask itself is really cooling and made my skin feel soft after and even though it said to only leave it for 10-15 minutes I just left it on and then it started to crumble a little and washed it off. I think I left it for half an hour? maybe a little more I forgot xD

Wow this review writing is pretty tiring too! I think I'll leave it there and review the others after I've used them some more (: 

OKAY BYE.

somebody call out to your brother,

he's calling out your name;

Exams are almost finished! Well all the hard ones are over now YAYAYA!!! I just have English Assignment and Japanese reading exam and then I'm FINISHED :D

I am trying to do my english at the moment but my brother is playing GT5 so.. I will like adapt. The Maths C Exam today was pretty intense. It went for like 3 hours D: and surprisingly we needed all that time... that's pretty crazy I sometimes wonder what made me choose to do Maths C as a subject...... I guess I must be loony (:

-a few hours later-

Honestly, it takes me like agessss for me to write up one post because I start writing then I remember I had to do something or another and get distracted then my laptop laggsss and just all these things so I take ages and most of the things that was relevant when I started writing isn't anymore... but I guess one thing that still is that I have not finished my english yet. I will try! I pro.. actually I don't promise because I don't think I would keep it and I don't want to not keep my word (:

Okay, at the beginning of the post I said I wouldn't ramble about english but I think I need to vent.. because I just don't like english as a subject, like yeah, I can speak the language but I just can't seem to be very good at english as a subject... which is kinda weird...................... I don't speak der engrish. :S

Also, we all know energy drinks are bad for you yes? Why do we take them D:

Okay, I will try to do some english now (: WISH ME LUCK 8D

night time

I feel like I should blog, but I don't know what to say really.. Every time I start to blog about something I lose my train of thought and then I just end up deleting the whole thing anyways. So I think I'll just say that exams are coming up and I am not a happy chappy. I am trying to do more productive things but gah oh well. This was pretty much a pointless post..

WORD OF THE DAY

ku·dos/ˈk(y)o͞oˌdōs/

Noun:	Praise and honor received for an achievement.
Synonyms:	glory - renown - fame - honour - honor - reputation

and because my net is pretty slow at the moment just one photo.