easy going?

So we flew over the Atlantic for about seven hours. Michael watched three films and I ate Haribo and worked on my presentation. When it was time to give my speech, I'd appear to be winging it when, in reality, I'd rehearsed it so many times that I was word-perfect and didn't even need to look at my notes. I'd thrown in a few ums and ahs because nobody likes a smartarse seventeen-year old, and I probably would fall over my sentences at the start from nerves but then I planned to be funny and insightful and the voice of my generation, which wasn't difficult as my generation was woefully inarticulate.

Adorkable, Sarra Manning page 251

I really liked this paragraph I'm not really sure why maybe because it showed me that nothing comes easily and even though it seems to look effortless there is actually a lot of effort and motivation to achieve what seems to be so easy.

I probably aren't all that great at articulating my words either but that's why I am trying to expand my vocabulary. It's not an easy thing to do but I guess everything is a little tough in the beginning.

So yeah, I guess let's just see how this goes I don't really know the reasons why I write in this blog but then again something might come out of this whole experience and if nothing does something will one day and I'll think to myself thank god I put in that effort to achieve something. That probably won't happen right away though because I'm actually the most slack, lazy, unmotivated person right now. I guess it kinda shows in this blog too. It's all over the place and has no structure.

I'm trying to give my life structure and somehow move through the obstacle course I've set for my life. But I don't know maybe I'm on the wrong tangent at the moment or something. So yeah, sorry if this blog is all in loose ends and indecisiveness. Not that I think that I have any loyal readers or anything I don't think I'd even read my own blog AHA!

But if there is anyone who listens to my rants and just plain stupid posts sometimes, thank you. It means a lot to me. More than you'd think hey.