The feeling in my stomach

This is a mini recount about the first time I met up with a friend that I am pretty close with through Skype but haven't ever met up properly.. So today was the first day I met up with him and I was pretty excited I made sure I looked pretty, did my hair nice made sure my makeup was even and not flaky I put in quite a lot of effort. And we just didnt know what to do when we were together and he walked behind me most of the time which kind of annoyed me really like he couldn't even walk beside me? Or voice himself if we went the wrong direction because I had no idea where I was going.. Why is this guy such a wimp? I want someone with balls not someone who just follows behind my footsteps seriously? Grow a set.

And then while watching the movie that was chill like nothin happened not like anything should have but still we didn't even touch the whole day.. I don't think :/ then after the movie finished he just was like oh I guess I'll go home now.. And he did he walked to the bus stop and just waved goodbye and I was like seriously? The movie just finished and he doesnt even want my company? You suck.

So I tested him pretty much right after he left probs desperate but once he was gone I felt so alone like more alone than ever and I hated it. I hated it so much I wanted to cry right in the middle of the street. and he just texted happily saying I'd have fun shopping myself and by that point I was pissed so I told him he will sucks. And I didnt get a reply.

Shopping was a little relieving after I got into the mood but for a good 15-20 mins I had the worst feeling in my stomach of just loneliness and hurt and it just made me feel horrible and spending money just didn't make me happy. But I got a cute knit and some treatment for my hair and all was better.

So I get home and I find out he's going to Sydney and leaving pretty much right as he told me and I was in a pretty happy state and right then the horrible feelings came back into my stomach. This time I took a lot longer to shake them and I had to talk ti my friend about it to just rage about it and I'm just so confused why would he be such an ass? I don't understand.

EDIT 26/6/2012 10.38pm
Turns out he isn't in Sydney, because of the rain and turbulence his flight was cancelled.. but he still didn't tell me.. what does that mean? I still don't understand.