so its like 2.31am right now and i am pretty tired but I'm not asleep and I have no idea why. I should probably be doing some of my assignment but I don't think my brain will be very productive right now. So yeah I can't even seem to be able to make sentences that flow right now.. And I just have like a whole range of feeling going through my head right now like I feel angry and peeved and just like all weird inside and I feel like crying or something I don't know if its like hormones or something but I just feel like weird. argh I don't make any sense!
Anyways I think im like just so annoyed because I said I wouldn't let it get to me and all taht shiz but I really don't like my brother being friends with John.. Like it's not liek I can do anything to stop him from being friends with him but seriously what can I do about it? I can't tell my brother about anything that happened and it seems like I'm just torturing myself I don't even know why I am so angry about it like its in the past and everything. and I should just like be over it but I just can't seem to get over that he was in my house. that he was touching the things like I live in.. I didn't even want to go to the living room because I felt like almost repulsed by touching something that he had touched. HE WAS IN MY FUCKING HOUSE. Now I have no where to hide. nothing I can do about privacy I don't know what to do..
I just want to cry like cry it out and get over it but I don't think its even worth the tears what an assface you fucking ruined my life. i hate you jonh. i truly do.
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