oh tutor how I loathe your weekly occurance,

The feeling in my stomach

This is a mini recount about the first time I met up with a friend that I am pretty close with through Skype but haven't ever met up properly.. So today was the first day I met up with him and I was pretty excited I made sure I looked pretty, did my hair nice made sure my makeup was even and not flaky I put in quite a lot of effort. And we just didnt know what to do when we were together and he walked behind me most of the time which kind of annoyed me really like he couldn't even walk beside me? Or voice himself if we went the wrong direction because I had no idea where I was going.. Why is this guy such a wimp? I want someone with balls not someone who just follows behind my footsteps seriously? Grow a set.

And then while watching the movie that was chill like nothin happened not like anything should have but still we didn't even touch the whole day.. I don't think :/ then after the movie finished he just was like oh I guess I'll go home now.. And he did he walked to the bus stop and just waved goodbye and I was like seriously? The movie just finished and he doesnt even want my company? You suck.

So I tested him pretty much right after he left probs desperate but once he was gone I felt so alone like more alone than ever and I hated it. I hated it so much I wanted to cry right in the middle of the street. and he just texted happily saying I'd have fun shopping myself and by that point I was pissed so I told him he will sucks. And I didnt get a reply.

Shopping was a little relieving after I got into the mood but for a good 15-20 mins I had the worst feeling in my stomach of just loneliness and hurt and it just made me feel horrible and spending money just didn't make me happy. But I got a cute knit and some treatment for my hair and all was better.

So I get home and I find out he's going to Sydney and leaving pretty much right as he told me and I was in a pretty happy state and right then the horrible feelings came back into my stomach. This time I took a lot longer to shake them and I had to talk ti my friend about it to just rage about it and I'm just so confused why would he be such an ass? I don't understand.

EDIT 26/6/2012 10.38pm
Turns out he isn't in Sydney, because of the rain and turbulence his flight was cancelled.. but he still didn't tell me.. what does that mean? I still don't understand.

its the HOLDAYS

I was actually writing up a post in my phone near the beginning of the holidays and then forgot about it and it deleted itself :/ so lame. Anyways, the holidays are finally here and I have 2 and a half weeks.. TOO SHORT D:

The term of DOOM is coming up. Term 3. GAAAAAAAHHHHH *runs away*

its not even funny.

TO DO THIS HOLIDAY:

• Shoppinggg YAYAYA :D
• Clean the house :/
• Start research on Macbeth for English ):
• Maths C assignment D:
• Gifts and letters for Ayaka and host grandma (:
• Thinking about what to pack for Japan :S
• Download all of Dance Academy Season 2 woot ;)

Okay, well I think I will get back to cleaning my room and writing up a shopping list YE YE YE

TOOODLEEES xx

Oh sleep, how I have missed your comforting embrace;

Me: I have to get up early this morning! #determined
Bed: But baby it's cold outside ;)

the night after the all nigher,

on wednesday night I swear I was out and sadly I fell asleep in a call which.. is pretty embarrassing but but friend is pretty understanding (:  and today he has an exam so GOOD LUCK BUDDY!

And well today I swear I was aiming to study but it didn't really happen... *shifty* I was pretty lazy and shit so yeah.. oh wells. um. so I am going to try and study now after I finish this post (:

ONLY TWO EXAMS TO GO woot woot

My exam checklist was here

oh em gee almost finished!!

Um I wanted to post not really about anything in particular but just to update this blog and yeah hopefully tomorrow will go along well and then  I can partayyy loljks. I still have to go to school on monday ):

genius.

It's an all nighter tonight,

Okay I am still awake and it is preeeetty early and my laptop is still being lame so rage. And I should really start writing up my English even though I'll probably be just bull shitting the whole thing today anyways.

Freaking I need to stop procrastinating.

I am blogging from my phone again and I think I'll just have another little rage to remind myself what I am doing this year. Or what I should be doing this year.

I should make one of those motivation boards or some shit.. I'll probably forget but I really need to like freaking get focused.

Faaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkkkk

Colgate Max White

I wanted to blog from my laptop today but it's being really stupid so I guess I'll just write another post from my phone.

I actually have an English oral tomorrow and I'm actually a little scared for it.. School orals scare the shit nuts out if me. True story. So fml.

Okay enough depressing talk actually wait one more little rage ahaha (: I have a really good friend or I always thought we are... Anyways I don't know if I'm paranoid or something but I swear when I called him he went offline I'm sure there is always a good reason or what not but I won't lie. I think I'm getting too into this friendship and if I'm not careful he is probably going to get freaked out or some shit and think I want to marry him :| and I don't mean to but I think if you're the one who cares more in the friendship you would probably be head over heels or some shit but holy shit alarm bells should be ringing like crazy. And I miss him. I fucking miss him. But I doubt it does..

Okay now no more depressing talk.

I bought this toothpaste a few days ago and I've been using it I wouldn't say it works like magic or anything but I think I might be seeing a little tiny tiinie little bit of whitening... Maybe? I'll let you know how it goes.. :S

Games

The past few days have been such a blur I reckon.. Anyways I just called my friend and he answered but seemed kinda busy so I asked if he was sleepy? No. Gaming? Yes.. In a call? Yes. So I told him he could go back to the call. And he asked me if it was okay and I said yes. That I wouldn't be upset or cry it make him feel bad. Nopes. And then he left. And tears came to my eyes.

Wind.

The weather lately is cray cray. It's cold like shit in the morning and sunny during the day. The sun goes down early and it gets shit cold again. Far out. And my Japanese and chemistry exams... Hm.

Something I would loooove to do during the cold nights is take a nice long bath but since I don't have a bath available at the moment ): and I haven't stocked up on any lush bath ballistics ahaha I'll settle for amazing soap.

Miranda, oh Miranda why haven't I found you earlier?

This soap from lush is just wow. Amazing. It looks really pretty, smells amaaaaazing, exfoliates gently and just leaves you in the happiest mood. Love it to bits x

apologies

for the boring layout of my posts lately, I have been too lazy to blog properly so I've been posting from my phone and as you can see there are not very many options available. I feel like posting about a few things so well just see how this post turns out then (:

ONE
Exams are coming up, and because I should be studying but I am writing this blog post instead I'll just list my exams out for no particular reason. Hopefully, it will give me the kick in the ass I need to absorb all this content.

Monday 4/6/2012
Japanese Listening Exam

Wednesday 6/6/2012
Japanese Writing Exam
Chemistry Exam

Thursday 7/6/2012
Accounting Exam (Part 1)

Friday 8/6/2012
Japanese Speaking Exam

Tuesday 12/6/2012
Maths B Exam

Wednesday 13/6/2012
English Oral

Friday 15/6/2012
Maths C Exam
Accounting Exam (Part 2)

Well that is quite a substantial list... So fml.

edit; until I get on my computer writing done against the exam will do.

TWO
I was watching a few shows and just from random happenings I heard these words which I didn't really know what they meant so I had to dictionary them or 'define google' them (Y)

ir·i·des·cent/ˌiriˈdesənt/

Adjective:

Showing luminous colors that seem to change when seen from different angles.

e·mas·cu·late/iˈmaskyəˌlāt/

Verb:

Make (a person, idea, or piece of legislation) weaker or less effective. Deprive (a man) of his male role or identity: "he feels emasculated because he cannot control his sons' behavior".

and because no matter how many times I look this up I always forget

mel·an·chol·y/ˈmelənˌkälē/

Noun:

A deep, pensive, and long-lasting sadness.

There are probably more but that is all I can think of off the top of my head at the moment

THREE
I wanted to write this up because even though it's probably a little late its always better late than never yeah?
(well maybe not in this case..) but here goes:

My Goals for the other half of this Year 2012

• Finish with an OP 5 at least.
• English: Read more, Listen more, Try more. HA5+
• Maths B: Revise, Revise, Revise. VHA5+
• Maths C: Same as above. VHA5+
• Chemistry: Ask more questions. HA8+
• Japanese: Start listening in class! VHA7+
• Accounting: Stop procrastinating! VHA5+
• STOP PROCRASTINATING. STOP. STOP. STOP.
• Sleep at a decent hour on school nights.
• Study every night and go to SLQ or stay back at school if needed.
• Pay attention in class and revise diligently.
• Have enough energy during the day to function properly.
• Save up money because I buy too much shit.
• Organise my life out so that I don't have mental breakdowns when everything gets overwhelming.
• Find my balance personal, social, school.
• Start getting my hours up for learning to drive.
• Relax and recoup during the June/July holidays and make memories in Japan in the September holidays and finish term 4 with a bang!

It's a pretty big list but I still think everyone is capable if they put their mind to it. And I am sure that if I put my mind to it I will be able to reach these goals.

Over and out x

Daily resilience #rage

I wanted to write a little review on this hair treatment spray I've been using for quite a while now and it's not crazy amazing but it's pretty good. If you can see from the picture I'm almost out and I think I will buy another bottle (: it's just really easy to use and a quick spray to your hair really boosts the moisture for the day *thumbsup*

And I wanted to just rage at work because I like my system and I work well with my system but today my boss was like do it this way and I was like... But that's not how I do it but yo they're the boss and shiz so yeah and I ended up stuffing it up anyways so yeah friggen why you no balanced RAGE

#edit: why does that picture look so ghetto..

LUSH COLLECTION

I should be studying but yeah.. My brain is just like FUUUUUUUUUU

So I'm just going to list all the lush products I have collected over the past few months

FACE
Herbalism cleanser
Ocean salt (sample)
Coal face (sample)
Cupcake fresh face mask
Catastrophe cosmetic
Brazened honey
Tea tree toner
Enzymion moisturiser
Grease lightning
Mask of magnaminty face mask

LIPS
Sweet lips scrub
It started with a kiss lip tint
Latte lip tint

SOAP
Miranda

BODY
Grass shower gel
Charity pot (sample)

HAIR
Daddy-O shampoo
Rehab shampoo
Retread conditioner
Seanik solid shampoo bar
Shampoo bar tin
H'suan Wen Hua hair treatment
No drought (sample)

Just realized that's a pretty big list...

Another FREE WIFI post

But I'll have to be quick because I only have one station to write this.. And I don't even know what to write about! Ahah well half day today! Keen for half a day of hardcore shopping yee ;)

Keeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnn