Siblings

Another long time no blog, sorry again but I don’t seem to have any motivation to blog regularly and there is just so much stuff that has been making me stressed lately that I don’t even want to write down all the shit in my head at the moment. I really hoped that this blog would be successful and not just like somewhere to dump my thoughts and not make any sense. But I guess it comes from practice to how well you can blog hey. And I’m not making excuses but I honestly am not that great at English anyways. I guess I don’t have a gift for expression but I think that if I continue to blog for a while I’ll get better and maybe people will read my blog more often..

So what I want to talk about today is fighting, especially fighting between siblings. You see my brother and I don’t get along much like rarely and I don’t really know why that is.. but it just never seems to be able to go well. So sometimes when I’m in a really good mood and I try to be friendly he is just the biggest pain in the ass. But when today he was like a loony person I was pretty much not in the mood and he just kept on annoying me and I was like seriously? You can’t take a hint? And then I went to watch a TV show when he was away from the TV and then he came back and was just being the most annoying person I was getting so pissed. And then he got pissed too and I was like shit. This is never going to work.

I really admire all those people who can get along with their siblings and are like tight with them. Because I don’t really see myself doing that and I don’t know how that is going to go when we grow up and something happens. Would we really hate each other that much that we wouldn’t help each other? In a way I think that is what is going to happen and so I need to find someone or I need to figure out something so that I don’t have to fall to the bottom. That’s all I want to do really . Keep my head above water.