lets get some COLOUR

Have you ever felt so unmotivated that you just don't want to do anything with your life? That's sort of what I feel like now. And I feel like I just need someone to talk to me, not scream at me. Someone to want to care. And you'd think that that person would be your own mother.

I'm not going to say hurtful things but the key to a good relationship is communication. And I don't have any of that with my mum. Yeah, I just assumed all asian parents are like this and we're all antisocial and don't express love. But is it that hard just to say "What's wrong?" or "How have you been?" Do they really not know how to show they care? It's just 'Why aren't you studying?" "You haven't done your work today" "Do your work! Why don't you focus" And you know what saying this stuff just makes me stoop lower and you don't care. And you know what if I'm not strong enough you're just going to squish me too.

Anyways, I think thats enough depressing talk for now but one more thing! I tried on my formal dress and I got FAT D: It's like tight on me and I can't breathe so I'm like major OMGMOGMOGMGOGM right now :\

I fell asleep and you woke me up and screamed at me again, I didn't show it to you then but I'm crying now.im fucking crying and you dont give a fuck. bitch.